I Smile Now

This terror! What awful things I've done!
To live so loosely, have I no control?
"Move your eyes, direct your hands, enslave your thoughts!"
I refuse to follow what I Love, yet fall victim to what I despise.
This can't happen, this can't be me.
I stand, swallow my dry throat,
Then let out a sigh of relief.
The jubilation, the Joy from the words I read!
It was false, nothing but a fake.
I laugh, giddy and great.
Comfortable, secure, and strong,
Without the hinders of my wrong.

A smile fit for Kingdom's courts
Flashes into mind.
It's Beauty beyond the eyes.
My mood is fresh, my gait is light.
With words He lifted my burden and set me right.
Sending Peace to my soul, my heart is loud.
I smile now.

Inspired by Romans 7:15 and following Paul's thoughts just by coincidence or by The Holy Spirit...probably the latter